just the way these things go pt i by oliviacolomar, literature
Literature
just the way these things go pt i
i am a beautiful bout of stars and sky compiled into a confounded heart, left reasonless in the dark so many times hold me gently, like you promise now, when we finally form a union, beautiful motion scrubbing off the dirt and rinsing off my feet hear me, my tired soul hear me forgiving the unkind parts of me and respecting my needs, recognizing the demon’s sins seeing my ardent potential chaining up my loose lead mind promising a golden future for no one else but me
the idea of intricacy; spent on cyber moments, tokens of human intimacy you possess the same cog turning mind that frequently spins my world, flips it upside down, my insides out fragility and barren roots on display
in the crescent of empty geography, moonlight beckons, becomes one with voices of the past reflection of their faces in the pond, indefensible. your own? sometimes, even worse, even wetter forgiveness is an assault, an overrated hymn with no resolve. there are no blind eyes during this time, no shrouds or masks to hide behind. madness eats the hearts of the pure, at the source of the enchantment, all these ghosts spawn from the same plane you call home, so everyone will die in this sinful cesspool
you were the last
of my misfortune
i knew it from the
moment we spoke,
let our minds run
rampant. for once
again, i lived to
enjoy. i lived to
love, and i did,
even though it
was unfounded,
even though you
were no possession,
i imagined a false
future by your side,
my neurons alive,
itching for a taste
of an ego-id state
but i'm burnt out
and trickless. you
were no savior,
a stalking shadow,
black cat in
disguise, you
sealed away the light
as easily as you
brought it back
to me
and that's what separates us, finally by oliviacolomar, literature
Literature
and that's what separates us, finally
nothing in you is worthy
and only half of me has a
leg up on you,
we race cross-continent, cross
years, our development
stunted simultaneously
bang, bang.
two bullets in
one heart.
you can shake and erase
our past, but the saddest
thing about you
is the present
if i sustain this pain
one more night and day
i can manage being the martyr
in our picture-book plot.
if it costs all
of my heart's savings
for you to lick your thumb
and tab our page, i'll sign it away,
like that,
gone
kill me
so empty
breaking
the madness
in
nothing
exempt
from living
easy
be easy
too hard
breathing
in you
taking
away
the pain
i had
so
why
is the
resultant
so fallen
i
am
unsure
how to move
forward
what weight does a word carry
on the mouth of a performer? he
speaks eloquently not for release,
but for control
my sodden mind was a victim,
ensnared idolization. please never
talk to me again, don't ever mouth
my name
it's clear
your words
never knew me
his shift
of mind, so
brilliant
it's strange
to see the
eyes of
another in
your own
thoughts,
a life separate
from your own
leading the
same
escapade
a conquest
for glory
like none other
how do i become
boundless?
no-one i loved
before has asked
so much of me.
i wither down for
you, like wax to the
flame, because i love
the warmth,
but i can only
melt wax,
i cannot
shed my skin
you are not the first to wear
the same beckoning, calling skin
your fine edges annulling my roots,
and i don’t think you were the first to
Kill.
Kill what once was
a ticking pocket watch, an echo
heard only by one
now ticking for fallen ears.
It does hurt to see things die,
but there is a certain satisfaction
In having washed hands
you are so delicately edged.
midblue spring, candlelight whitewash;
i bet your face would look good
behind the flame-
on the other side
of this godforsaken
cracked mirror,
where i am.
where
i
am,
grasping at the flicker
only to get singed
and recoil into darkness
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